sad sad day

So today Franco told me he wanted a break and i was shocked!!!!! I wrote this to him(not giving it to him but i thought you guys could see it to understand how i feel). I have been praying for god to halp me with this anger i feel for him. I hope he forgives me for feeling this much anger. I love you all.












Since when is marriage something you just throw away as soon as it gets tough?
Since when is it something that you can just get tired of?
It seems like you didn't even try......you just decided that YOU needed to clear your head.


We have had problems for six months and I have stuck around doing EVERYTHING that i know of to make you happy but yet you just make me feel like i am fat, ugly, and worthless!!!!
You say you didn't mean to hurt me but then why did u just act like our marriage meant NOTHING TO YOU!!!
You say you don't want to talk to me about it right now because i'm angry....OF COURSE I'M ANGRY!!!!!!
You were someone i stood and took vows to trust, love, and honor for all of eternity and u act like those were just words and they meant NOTHING TO YOU!
You are the one who had his ex at the party the night before our wedding and whose ex stole MY WEDDING RING!
You are the one who would never talk to me!
You are the one who talked on the phone at 5 in the morning instead of being in bed next to me.


You are the one who sneaks around and then rolls his eyes when i talk to you about it like my feelings didn't mean anything to you!!!
Yes I am jealous,but i have reason.


Yes i am depressed,but did you think you were helping that by not wanting to have sex with me,kiss me,or talk to me.


I cooked and cleaned and tried to make you as comfortable as you could possibly be here.


Yet you still tear my heart into pieces!!!!!!
Marriage is hard and it takes two people to make it through the tough times,but apparently you weren't ready for that commitment.


Apparently you are just not mature enough for it.


I should have noticed,but i guess i was living in my dream world that i would marry the love of my life and all would be ok.


I thought in my dream world i meant more than just a person that you call your wife and complain about.


I thought that i would be the person you would talk to if you needed to talk...i thought i was going to be your best friend.....i thought i was the one you were suppose to take care of and dream about a life with.


How could you do this to me if you really cared for me like a husband should care for his wife!
Why am i so disgusted with you yet i still love you with all my heart!!!!