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So its getting harder and harder every day now........i mean i just miss talking to him and being with him when i get off work you know. I just don't understand how he could do this to me. I need to get away from this area. I dont ant to run i just need to take a few days and just relax and clear my head. I just keep going and going and i don't stop cause i hurt so bad. But im starting to realize i need to so im thinking about taking some of my money and asking for some time off and leaving for a little while. I am not totally sure. I just constantly feel like my heart is beating a million miles per hour and i cant catch my breath. I dunno anymore........there is nothing i can do about it i just need to learn to live with it. Anyways i love you all ttyl!