Wow its been FOREVER!

Well i havent posted in forever so for those still interested here is an update. I am now 22years old and divorced. I have been engaged to a wonderful man,David Burnett, for almost a year and half and I am so in love,but we are taking it slow. I was working for the United States Census Bureau but the job had ended not to long ago. I am now unemployed,but that is what i want it to be like until i graduate college. I start my freshman year at Arkansas State University in less than 3days! I will soon be an Occupational Therapist if everything goes as planned. Well other than that its just a day to day life!

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Well i just wanted to update on this here......well i moved out on myown in March 2009. I met this wonderful man David Burnett! We have been dating now for about 6months and are engaged to get married in 2011. I found out i was pregnant in August but i had a miscarriage :( after that i was hospitalized and was real sick. I moved with my Fiance back into my moms house because with missing so much work with being hospitalized i lost my job. Now things are pretty slow he is working and i am looking we are going to climb our way back up to the top with gods help! I just know it!

O goodness what is new??!!!??!!

Ok so where do i start..........well first off my family is doing great.........I have a new job, I work at a customer service call center for AT&T wireless service.......making decent money for once........i still plan on starting college this summer but im going to start it online(Penn Foster online college) it will take me about 6months to a year to finish my medical coding and billing certificate......after I finish that i plan on going to some spanish classes..........its cheap fast and a good career.........I got a apartment with one of my friends we live in a two bedroom apt and love it! I sold my car to pay for bills before i got this great job i got low on money because Jcpenney was not giving me any hours...............I am about to get a new one within the next month...........Franco n I are still tryn to finish the divorce but about two months ago Franco called me to say he needed to talk to me i guess this whole time we thought him and my stepsister were together n they said no way well he finally told me they were together and she is pregnant with his baby so that didnt help my trust issues lol...........but that has been a couple months I got over it pretty quick actually i mean it still hurts just because of the betrayal but i learned that those kind of things would just tear me up inside if I were to keep them inside and hold onto them adn I would never move on..........I am glad i did let go of that because I met this amazing guy!!!!!!!! He is the total opposite of the guys I dat and it is actually the first time since Franco that i have honestly and truly trusted with 100% of my being.........He is great... i mean he takes me out, we talk and talk for hours, he gives me chills everytime he touches my hand or gives me a kiss.................He actually cares about me and for once it feels great to have someone in my life usually my bf's stress me out and he just makes me so happy.....We are taking things slow and for once I am ok with that i mean i am so use to moving fast i dont take the time to realize what i am doing..........Anyways i really hope u all are ok I promise i will try to get on here more sorry LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!

Hey sorry its been so long!!!

So life is going ok. I have had a lot of horrible things go on lately but I am keeping my head up and going to church to thank god for what I have. I still work at Jcpenney and I just got a raise. It is the holiday season so it is pretty crazy at work and at home. My cousin Danielle, har boyfriend and baby moved here and are living with us now. I love it i missed her so so so much. She is closer to me than anyone in my life. We are like sisters, not cousins. There is really too much to talk about right now I am about to go to work i will get on soon and tell you EVERYTHING!!! I love you!!!!

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So everything is going great! Tim and I are still doing awesome and I am so happy i found him! My new job is great i have raised sales in that department amazingly...no one can believe it hahaha! My mom and I are still fighting ALL THE TIME i guess she doesnt think i am ready to grow up. I know she is only worried,but telling me i am a failure and that i am not mature enough to do anything is not a way to show me you are worried. She always yells at me all the time and asks where i am going....How much did i get paid..... Whta am I going to spend it on...... o goodness hahaha! Anyways I am moving out just as soon as I get ahead with money. I love you all and I miss you.

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Sorry its been like a month since i have posted anything!!!! Alot has changed....... the last post i was having a bad day. Now lol i have been dating a guy who is very sweet and treats me better than i have ever been treated. He opens doors for me, tells me im beautiful all the time, we talk for hours and hours on a daily basis, is very into church.....and so much more!!! As a matter of fact i found out that when he was 18(he is 20 now) he went to Romania on a missionary trip with his church!!! I dont know if you know this but ever since i was 17 i have always and i mean ALWAYS wanted to volunteer over sees,but never had a church that did missionary trips or had the money to go with any of the companies! There are some downfalls though :( for example.....my mom and I are growing apart because we fight all the time. We have for a long time before Franco and I split. Its getting worse and worse now because she is so stressed and my boyfriend Timothy is..... black. Now i respect everyones opinion right,but it shouldnt matter what color he is. It should matter if he treats me right and makes me happy and has goals and morals. I mean if I were to die tomorrow would it matter what people thought or said behind my back or would it matter if i was happy and true to my feelings and got the most out of life? Anyways I could talk about him all day lol next subject.......

I got a new car....1998 Mitsubishi Eclipse!!! I love it........

Anyways i still work at Super D for the next two weeks lol. They moved me to full time and now they just put me back down cause they got a new girl. Which is not right because i have been there for 6 months,but i think i am outgrowing that place....... I had a interview today at Jcpenny's in Jonesboro (20 miles away). My plan was to get two jobs there so I can get my own apartment there. One job to pay for the apt and the other to pay for my car. When i went they had three managers interview me at two different times. My interview was over a hour long.They said all they had was a part-time position at 7.00 and hour(min wage is 6.55 i think...maybe lower) and i said that is fine ,but told them i will either way i would have to get a second job. They understood. They still had another girl to interview after myself. After i left those interviews they called me LITERALLY 10 min after i left!!! They offered me not only Full time instead of Part tim they offered to pay me 7.75 and hour instead of 7.00 I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! It is in Jonesboro so that is nice that i will be able to move there now!!!!

The divorce status:
There is none hahaha.....no we both are just getting out of debt. Franco just started a new job and is making more money and i just got hired at a new job so we are just waiting for the financial part to fall into place before the paperwork can be finished. Everything else is taken care of though. I have all my stuff, money, my own bank account, new car, etc. That is all that is left.

I love you all and i hope all is well!!!

My email is: sweet_cara_cude@hotmail.com
My phone number is: 8705657325
My address is:
717 N.4th Street
Paragould,Ar
72450

Call or email or something i love you!!!!!

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So its getting harder and harder every day now........i mean i just miss talking to him and being with him when i get off work you know. I just don't understand how he could do this to me. I need to get away from this area. I dont ant to run i just need to take a few days and just relax and clear my head. I just keep going and going and i don't stop cause i hurt so bad. But im starting to realize i need to so im thinking about taking some of my money and asking for some time off and leaving for a little while. I am not totally sure. I just constantly feel like my heart is beating a million miles per hour and i cant catch my breath. I dunno anymore........there is nothing i can do about it i just need to learn to live with it. Anyways i love you all ttyl!