The pharmacy!

Hey so yeah today was my fourth day at the pharmacy. I still love it so much. The people are amazing and everything is awesome. Yesterday i got scared cause i thought i was going to get in trouble,but i ended up not. See this customer wanted her medcine and she didnt call or fax it in so of course we didnt have it in. Then she told us later after 15 min of trying to call the cdoctor she decided to tell us it was really for her mom.....then after that she didnt know if there was any insurance. Not to mention she was on the cell phone at the time. So this was all just a big mess. She finally came in so upset yelling and saying Melissa(my friend of 8 years or more that got me the job interview) was rolling her eyes and laughing but everyone was. The new girl(was her first day)and I were standing there and she was saying on the phone "I know mom i hate f***ing dirty little mexicans too!" and was just making these comments over and over. So finally i was like "Mam,could you please be a little nicer?" She got mad about that,but everyone here knows that my husband is Cuban and i am a BIG person about racism. I was nice when I asked her,but my boss was on the phone and just asked me even though she thought i was right just to apologize to the girl. I did but it was only for records. The girl didn't come back today like she said to talkt o my boss about me and Melissa. But i was at the point if they got mad and fired me over that I didn't want to work there even though i love the job. I just wont stand that especially to my best friend and considering my husband is Hispanic also it hit me in the wrong direction if you know what i mean. But my boss wasn't mad at all we didn't talk about it at all today afterwards. I was actually told by Melissa today that i might be getting moved to full-time and after four days and them not having any more hours to give i think that is a great thing. Anyways yeah i love it i just wish i had more time to go tanning Franco and I are not liking only having one car anymore it is getting tough. But i love you all!!!

AHHHH

So today was my first day with both jobs and I have decided hehe that i only want to keep one and that is the less stressful job at the [pharmacy they are giving me way too many hours to work another job at least for now. I cant wait till we go to atlanta and hopefully oregon hehe. Well i just thought i would let you knwo whats happening.

Update.....

Well i got a second job and I started monday. It is at a pharmacy and it is extremely fast paced. I love it though. I love the people and they are awesome. I just have to get use to working two jobs now. Hehe I went from having no jobs at all to having two hehe. It will be fine after a little while. Franco and I are thinking about moving back to Oregon. We figure lets start saving like we are going and plan on it and then if later on we do go we will have the money. I am pretty sure we will end up moving, but prolly late summer if I have my way about it. I love my family and i love the opportunities i have here but my heart is in Oregon and I think that everyone around my age needs to do what they feel is right. I super excited that spring is coming and then summer. Anyways i love you all and miss ya ttyl.

Hey everyone!!

I just came across this the other day and could not wait to get it on here. I love it.....sorry its messed up a lil bit but i miss those times hehe. I love ya Danielle!!

Life......

So today i was at work at 830 and i left at 1230 so it was a short day,but a long day at that. We were so busy,but it was all right. After work i went home and did my hair and makeup and went to get my eyebrows waxed. I was having a peppy day. I was all chipper and happy...even though i had a major migraine. After all that i went to lunch with my best friend Christa. We ate Casa Brava...yummy in my tummy.......She didnt eat,but i ate a taco we stayed there 35 min after we were done and we just talked. Friday we are having a girls day and I can't wait.We will prolly just ride around go back to casa brava(its our thing hehe at least once a week) and maybe go to the mall. I hope it is sunny though. Today it was sunny and decently warm,but it got EXTREMELY cold tonight and they say there might be ice. I hate it so much...not the ice part..the hot then cold it isnt good news. What does warm air and cold air create when they go head to head...???......TORNADOES!! not good we have been having alot of them lately and they scare me hahah. Well i love you all,but i just thought i would give an update hehe! Adios...Ciao......i dont know how to spell anymore ways hehe!

tuesday

Well right now i am at work and man do i feel like an idiot hehe. I am so weak compared to what i use to be. My boss and I were taking these shelves down,but they are huge lik 10 feet or more tall. I was huffing and puffing hehe. But i am just sitting here now and gaining more stregnth to go back out in to shop. Not to mention vlearing my sinuses. The shop is so dirty and musky...YUCK! Today has been a good day so far. I have been at work since 8:30 this morning and wont get off until at least 5,but my boss has been in a better mood than usual. Even though i told her that her husband, a recovering alcoholic with very very high blood pressure, was pulling out of a booze store yesterday(by my husband and I). She is a very good family friend and she has been my moms best friend for over 13 years now.*sneeze*I thought it was my duty to let her know when he is telling lies and stealing money. There is so much more to that story hehe. I am still having personal problems. But i am working on getting through that on my own. I need to make myself happy before i can make others happy. We realized we still need alot of stuff before we move into our apartment! We went to look at a "model" of one that was almost the same as the one we are getting. It was small,but we love the feeling and it is so nice inside. I can't wait. Well i just thought i would give you an update hehe*sneeze* i think im alergic to dust but who isnt hehe. Love ya!!!

A quick update.

Well I called the apartment place where we put the down payment and application in. She said that the credit cleared and the criminal is still out. I am so excited because the only thing that would have stopped us is our credit. We got into credit cards and are figuring things out,but they were only looking for outstanding house/apartment payment, repossession, and bankruptcy. So we should get our apartment now for sure. I am super excited. My future step-sis is still flirting with my husband. Now it is going over onto myspace . He still says im being jealous too much,but im not the only one who is worried. I told him i would lay off which i have. I only said something the one day....that was until the internet thing. (the whole story is below) I am still very upset,but trying just to forget it. Today i paid some bills and i am trying to get everything ready for march when we are in our apartment. I love you and and miss you dearly!

everything is not normal these days

Well today i woke up and my day started off with my mom telling me that my Grandmother had said something to her. My grandma told my mom that my future step sister was flirting with my husband. I have already mentioned this to Franco a couple of times. But he acted like i was just being jealous, but i swore that i wasnt,but i let it go. Then when my grandma and my mom both said that they thought the same thing without me saying anything to them before. See this girl(i dont want to mention any names) she was raised in a horrible lifestyle. Her dad and mom were very open about cheating on each other for many many years. So she is pretty messed up(not being mean). But i mean she is very open about asking Franco and only Franco to go outside to smoke,but he doesnt smoke. She doesnt even ask anyone that smokes. She always flirts while we play board games and even at the dinner table with everyone there. I am so confused. I dont want to be mean trying to get her to stop without starting a fight,but i dont know how. I want to be angry really angry! She is like my sister, i have known her for 13 years! She and her mom want her to ask if she can live with Franco and me,but i was like nope not happening! HAHA! I mean i know that girls are going to flirt with him,but she knows me very well and she know we are married. It is extremely different and twisted in my view. I dont even know how to put all this because it is really messing with my mind knowing that im not just being jealous......i just dont know i mean what would you do having to witness that every week........your stepsis flirting with your husband. I also had a weird dream the other night. I couldn't get it off my mind. I ended up looking into interpretation of the dream. It ended meaning that someone was having intense or repressed sexual desires, someone close to me was going to betray me,and that there were some strong emotions going around and i might be to nice to people that might hurt me. Isn't that weird though. Maybe i am overreacting but everything is going weird this is all stuff that was happening and now it is falling together in a very bad way. This is so wrong,but all i can do is hope that she doesn't try anything and trust Franco with all my heart like i promised in our vows.
Anyways now to the rest of my day....I went to work arounf 8:30. I was having an off day all day long(it was my monday). But i was getting by. Well it was extremely cold and raining so what does that mean at my work????? Tons of heating units froze and running on emergency heat( way expensive...my moms had to do that our electris bill was 297 last month YIKES!!!)! So everyone was calling and that was on top fo everything normal. Well then about 230 it was dead and then at 430 it got swamped! I was suppose to get off at 5 and didnt get off till 545 and i still wasnt done,but was told to go home anyway! I went out to my car and my door was froze shut! WHAT A DAY! lol.....but it could have been worse.....remember it always can get worse!

I just dont know what to do about that whole dream/sister extreme flirting with my husband......any advice??????? I love you all!

Update

Well today i went to those apartment i told you about to put in a application,because there is a waiting list and yeah you get the point. Well in order to be put on the list i had to pay a application fee and the deposit of 150 dollars. I was like ok i can do that. Well then i finally asked her when she thoguht we would get one,and she told me even though there were like 2 or 3 other people waiting it would be March3-8!!!!!! Yay so in one month we will have our own place. This place is so right for us. We have to pay electric,water,and cable....but thats okay cause you have to do that everywhere here and these apts have cheap rent and are totally awesome. Not only do they have all that i told you before but it has like three ponds. Two you can't fish or swim in,but the other im not sure if you can. I think it is "catch and release" pond. The apts go in a square,but there are only four apts per building. But in the m,iddle of all these there is this HUGE pond with bar-b-que grills and picnic tables. The summer is going to so much fun. Anyways im so excited the rent is going to be 365 a month+electric,water,cable,and maybe internet if we get our own computer. Well i just thought i would let you knwo that im counting down the days 26 days at the most till we move out!!!!!!! YAY!!!! LOVE YOU!!!

A wonderful day in Arkansas!!

Well today is awesome! It is now 2:06 and i feel so awake. It is absolutely beautiful outside. Yesterday was my grandmas birthday and today we went to lunch in Jonesboro(the big city). My family was all in a great mood. My two uncles,my mom,my moms fiance, my sister, Franco, my grandma, and me. We had a awesome lunch at Ryan's and they even sang happy birthday to my grandma. I feel so awake i am about to go tanning and to walmart. I am going to get a water hose and maybe a fewe other things. I am gonna wash my car and play with my puppies outside and maybe plant some flowers...well not sure about the flowers,but yeah. Well i love you all......have a good day!

life is good

Well today franco and I had a good day. Franco's step-dad was sending him some money for his birthday. His mom told us it was 250,but guess what.....IT WAS 500!!!! 500 hundred dollars can you believe it. It is going to help us so much.So we had a good day. I also got paid and bought a tanning package and i plan on getting a gym thing tomorrow. I just want to be more healthy. I would love to be little where i could buy clothes that i like,but that isnt the reason. I have asthma and i get really bad sometimes and i just want it to go away. Anyways Franco and i decided to stay with my mom for a month or so on till we feel ready correct.........well we decided yesterday where we want to live when we move. There are these apartments that are extremely nice! They have all appliances included(which is hard to find here),it has a basketball court for Franco, they have a fitness center for me, they have a pool for the summer, they have a tennis court(Franco and I have wanted to learn how to play for awhile now), and they have a clubhouse. Its PERFECT!!!! They have so many apartments there are always some open and they are good priced. If you are bored and you want to see them go to lindseymanagement.com and arkansas and paragould they have pics. Just if you want hehe.

Today is my grandma's b-day. She turns 78 today. My mom brought her here to the house and made her a cake with whipped cream and coconut.

Well i love you and,but ih ave a headache i am gonna go for now.

Okay now....

I overreacted im sorry everyone. Franco left me some comments and told me how he felt, but i still wish he would talk to me more. How was i suppose to know he had a long and bad day at work unless we talk. I ask him but he just says ok. I just need to get use to this marriage thing a little more i guess. They always say the first 2 years are the worst. We have only been married for 6 months. I love him and i have family all around me. Even though most of them get into my business i have them and they have me. I am usually good about stopping to think about what i have and it calms me down,but if i dont i get like i was when i wrote the blog(s) before. So i guess im just trying to say I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so soooooorrrrrryyyyyy!!!!!!! I was a jerk and i need to be punished. Franco is more than i could ever imagine having as a husband i he treats me better than most of my family! I love him more than anything and would be entirely lost without him. I love you all and ttyl!

I HAVE TO GET THIS OUT...SORRY

Yesterday i got off work and i come home to Franco who has been home for a few hours already and i walk to our room(which we already feel claustrophobic) it is filled with clean clothes and i didn't get a chance to put them away before work. They are everywhere. Along with his work out stuff and his guitar and the dogs pee on the floor! You know what he was doing?????????? Playing VIDEO GAMES!!!!! VIDEO GAMES!!!!! All night he played those(besides when the tornadoes were here)! Even at 10:30 at night when i wanted to sleep he was still on the bed playing those.

Today i got up and he let the dogs in from outside and his dog was mud head-to-toe and i was like wipe him off. Instead he sat down and started watching his show AGAIN and the dog was going all through the house getting mud all over the place. So i gave him a bath....did Franco help?????? NO he didn't!! Now remember this is a lab/pitbull. He is heavy! Well when i got done with that there was water all over the house with the mud from before,because the dog ran out of the bathroom without getting dried off.....Franco AGAIN just sat there like nothing happened. I took care of that and went to take a shower for work. I get out Franco is still in front of the t.v i stepped in pee,because the dog was by the door and Franco didn't get up to let him out!

The blog before this i was saying how he wants all this great stuff,but he wants it now when we can't do it! I just don't know what to do. I don't know if we were better off as b/f and g/f or if it moving to Arkansas that is causing these problems. When we moved here everything changed. We started yelling and getting angry alot more! I got and still am severely depressed! We have this little room we pay more than our friends pay for their house. We have a car that barely starts. I just don't know what to do. I love being with my family and closer to Atlanta where his family is,but i just cant do this my whole life. Something has to change or im afraid Franco and I won't last. Well sorry i am being a poohead but i needed it. i love you all!!!

Tornados!!!!

Im scared!!!!! There has been tornado after tornado after tornado all around us and here!!!!!! Franco and i just sat away from windows and hope for the best but there is some serious damage around these areas. That is for sure! I despise these kind of storms. It is one reason i never wanted to move back. Constant tornadoes. Thursday we had snow and then friday it was hott and has been since then. What do you get when that happens....ill give you one guess! Tornadoes!!!! I guess im freaking out for nothing but still i was scared out of my pants.
Anyways, today i was at work at it was so busy. Then my boss got so angry like every other day,but it wasnt me this time. It was a technician. He works on a appliance and then leaves. We get a call the next day saying it was broke again. He has to go back to the houses three times before he gets it right. We get at least one call like this a day! A day! He gets paid more than the owners who have 50 years in experience together and do all the paperwork and everything and they have to go behind him and pick up the slack! We figured it up and to have to go back two times(three including the one they pay for) it makes us 157.00 IN THE HOLE!!! Not to mention the people(like me) who sit at the computer typing this all up,ordering parts,taking the calls,and doing it all over again cause he rushed a 30 min call into 10 min!Sorry i needed to get that out.
Franco has officially bummed me out again. I love him to death, but he wants a perfect house for the perfect amount of money,wants to save money,wants to pay all credit card bills,wants to go to atlanta every six months and spend like crazy goin out to eat and stuff like that ALL AT THE SAME TIME! There is no way. We aren't out of college yet. We can't afford that. So i am trying to get him to understand this. The reason this came up again was because his family sent 250 dollars for his b-day(pics below) and i said lets save it and eventually fix the garage into a apartment(which was the first plan all together) because we can get a 1300sqf house with a yard for the dogs, hardwood floors, all electric w/no gas.....for only 300 a month including utilities. But he only wanted to spend it on a house right now for more money and very much more crapy. But i guess it will all work out. I sat him down figured up our income and bills and gave him what was left over if we went and got a house and he was like,but i dont want to wait. So i dont know what to do, but i guess that is part of being married.
I also made a decision today to open another savings account with no access and put 30 dollars a week into it. That way this time next year i will have enough for Franco and I to go to Nicaragua! We have been waiting to go for 3 years together and never got the chance....well i am making it happen! so spring/summer of 2009 im going.
Well everyone i am going to go to bed now i have worked all day and i am extremely tired i love you and miss you all!!!!!!!

Extra stuff

Me with my tan and hair.....

The cake i made Franco....

LOVE is AWESOME

Our friends Brian and Heather

Blow them out honey!!!!!!




So here is some pictures of his b-day! Hope you all like them!!!

The weekend

Well last night was Franco's 20th birthday and i made him everything he wanted. We had steak(which was really expensive for 11 people),mashed potatoes, broccoli with cheese sauce, french bread, and triple chocolate cake! All very heavy by the way hehe. He got a dragon water fountain from me since he loves dragon and a push up machine from my mom and everyone. Then after dinner we went to our friends house and just hung out. It was a AWESOME birthday! He was so happy! I got my aunt to tan me since she just bought this machine for air brush tanning. I look good tan hehe. I also got my hair done for him on friday so i got all hot for him and he loved it. Anyways i love you all but i have to go shopping for the super bowl party at our friends.

Sick,Sick,Sick.....

First of all i wanted to apologize about the last blog. I didn't mean anything by it i was just in a bad mood. I lost touch with myself and everything else and let my emotions talk for me. As you all know i use to do that a lot. I am trying to change my life and the way i view it. I want to feel more happy about everything and nopt so darn depressed.So anyways im a really really sorry.

Anyways back to the blog.... I have been so sick the last few days just feeling like i was going to Ralph! I finally did and now i can't stop. I hate being sick. Tomorrow is Franco's 20th birthday and i have to cook all day so i seriously hope i am not sick. Well i hope you all understand about before i love you all!